Zir Indigo is the solo project of Lotus Rogers, and this is their new single ‘Flowers’. Following last year’s debut ‘this is not a love song’, this latest tune acts more of a comeback than a second single.
“A year or so ago, I was going over to the apartment of a person who I was seeing at the time. And when I got out of the subway, almost everyone on the streets had a bouquet of flowers. I had been seeing this person for a while now so I started to stress if I too should stop at the nearest store and pick up flowers for them. This anxiety spiralled me down into a familiar narrative:
Why aren’t I feeling the same way everyone else is?
Why can’t I access my anger, share outward affection for others, feel the impetus to cry, or even focus my attention in the ways that others seem to?
Why does not shedding a single tear in the midst of a sad moment feel like a sin?
I wrote “Flowers” in pursuit of putting the derealization/depersonalization I’ve experienced since I was a kid into sonic form. I’m relatively new to the world of production but I really enjoy the challenge of trying to create a synesthetic experience, even if it’s just for myself.” – Zir Indigo
‘Flowers’ is a song that utilises its topics to great effect. It eases into frame with muted guitars and faint melodies, its voice growing slowly. Lotus’s vocals drape over these layers with relative ease, opening up a dialogue entwined in a myriad of thoughts that question themselves. The honesty and vulnerability makes it easy to connect to Lotus, and as these thoughts begin to pour out of the airwaves with increasing speed, the instrumental soon kicks into a loud set of riffs that confirms the dam is wide open.
Suddenly this withdrawn tune comes alive with strength. Bursting out of the speakers with distorted noise that feels so satisfying. ‘Flowers’ is a superb song, and one that feels like a re-introduction done right. I’m looking forward to hearing where Lotus goes from here.